I speak often about going into the darkness, towards the fears, to offer up our presence to greater understanding through our emotions. This can sometimes feel like diving into the deep dark blue sea- unknown, mysterious and even scary. Today I literally went into the deep blue sea, to be present to my fears and listen to my body, while exploring an unknown world which I had never seen face to face like I did today.
As we explored the East Cape of Baja, we arrived at a wide open sea side coastline. It was just me and a dear beloved friend to play and stand on paddle boards and snorkel in wide open waters inviting us as its welcome guests. I had never snorkeled before. Even though a great swimmer, a water person in my heart, something, a feeling, caused me to hesitate before going into the deep waters. I felt nervousness about what was living in undiscovered places beneath me, as I lay upon my paddle board on the water. I was guided out to a place where a ship wreck laid buried below, my curiosity beckoned me to experience the magical world that was calling. The curiosity and nervousness were the companions/feelings sharing space in my body and my heart.
At times we all need a little support, and mine was offered to me today as I lay upon my friend’s board. His strong masculine presence held space for a new world to open to me. It felt safe. With patience, moving slowly, eventually I was able to enter a new and undiscovered world. There was a vast array of new and exciting colors, shapes and sizes that allured me. I was fascinated by the way they moved with the currents and played in the crevices, which were now homes and playgrounds for these finned friends I had just met. They parked new life within me. The nervousness settled. Playfulness expanded through me. Feelings of such freedom, connection and love, as I witnessed this whole new world through the eyes of my exuberant inner child. My fear shifted to curious enthusiasm as I rode on the waves of grace.
This experience today was of diving into the unknown world of the deep blue sea literally. We all have these moments in our life when the waves of emotions are part of the human experience. The enemy is not the fear; the war is creating in our reactions to our feelings and our experiences. Do we feel the fear, investigate it, learn what its about and create a direction of least resistance in love or do we remain frozen staring into the abyss of life?
Diving into the deep blue sea today was a sweet reminder of presence, ease and grace by observing and experiencing the feelings while going through the experience. Shifting Panic to curiosity and enthusiasm opened me up to explore and enjoy a whole new world. There is a whole new world within you too that is waiting to be discovered. Dive deep, breathe and feel what ever is coming alive for you but don’t let it stop you from living life fully.
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